The Quest for a Mile

Thank you, friends, for your kind words. I do not know if I am *cough* "gorgeous," but I do think of that picture as haunting. That girl is like a ghost ... but ... well ....

I have several things that I want to say tonight, several thoughts swirling through my head, but you know ... I won't. For two reasons:

1) Straight-up confession: I realized that I haven't been taking my anti-depression medication since Saturday night, and I don't think that my thoughts are fair. But I got the prescription refilled, give it a couple of days to kick back in and to regroup my thoughts, and then if I still feel this way, then I'll share.

2) This place is my Mental Safe Zone, and something inside me is just fighting against these thoughts. Something is telling me not to share. Tonight is not the time to be negative. Instead, I'm gonna think of something positive, because I really think it's more of what I need tonight.

So ... hmmm ... something good ....

Well, I was really good on my diet today. I only ate about 25 fat grams (I've written down all of my food and have a rough approximation, but I haven't made the final tally yet), and I jogged tonight for 1:30, and walked for 3. I went 2.098 miles, burned 348 calories, and it took me 48:00.

A really good thought ...

My students have been so awesome these past few days. I just love my kids. I don't guess I told you guys, but last Tuesday when I was so sick and I called in a sick day, I had to cancel a couple of my classes. The principal accidentally forgot to announce that the class was cancelled at one of my schools, and several of my students showed up for class. Well, 10 minutes into class and I still wasn't there, so one of my students called me at home to see if I was coming. This student, named Austin, is a senior in high school and kind of a hell-raiser, but he connects to me for some reason. He would be the kind of kid that would typically be THRILLED if his teacher didn't come to class. But there he was, on the phone, sounding all pitiful, and just said, "Are you coming to class today?" And I was like, "Oh, no, Austin, didn't the principal make the announcement?" And he responded with, "No. Why do you sound like a dude? You sick?" And I laughed and said, "Yeah, I've got a sinus infection. Can't come in today." And he said, "Okay. We were asked by the guidance counselor to help out with something, so we can do that to stay outta class" (see, what'd I tell ya? Hellraiser.) "but I hope you get to feeling better soon."

After I hung up, I realized how extraordinary that phonecall was. How many students call their teachers WANTING them to come to class? I tell you what, I've truly got the best students in the world.

And with that thought, and a smile on my face, I'm gonna call it a night, and go get my shower, and go to sleep.

Posted in: good thoughts on Wednesday, September 9, 2009 at at 9:27 PM